A Wish Upon A Star

I have always wanted to write sensibly, meaning touching on some topics or subjects that require deeper analysis and diligent considerations of things that matter.  But I know with my dwindling capacity that goes with the aging process, my mind seems incapable of even touching on the simplest simple subject.  If only my blogging has happened during my youth I could have probably made or posted incredible, if not much crappier, blogs than I should be, or am doing right now!  Before, just to cite you some little fact about me which isn’t necessary and wouldn’t help any bit anymore, I used to have in my words armory some 20,000 pieces of vocabulary literally printed in my mind.  Now they’re gone probably went out in smoke in the gutters and chimneys of my mind.  I’m lucky if I still have some 5000 or so even less English words left.  So I feel unworthy writing sensitive subject because I simply lacked the capacity now to express my ideas thoroughly.  If it seems I’m still thriving writing things with impunity and looks as if I’m not going to stop doing it, you’re wrong!  I have always wanted to stop blogging, or writing to be straight with you.  But somehow I’m just a human being, though old, maybe now less provocative and arrogant, maybe now less stubborn and poignant, but still equally pervasive of attaining some point or something only my ego could understand.  Yes, I probably just want to impress my own ego, bluffing it, that I’m still young and could write things anyway I want, but could I?  There, I hope you be the judge. And I don’t care no matter how partial or not you could get, just lay the verdict!  I would love to hear or read it.  So maybe just to put an end to this something I’m doing whatever you may call it!

But meantime as usual while waiting for you to decide my case, I’m still all out here to do a favorite thing, i.e., blogging scrappily to my heart’s content!

“When you wish upon a star, it makes no difference who you are… your dreams come true!”  This is a lyric of a song so very popular during the 60s or 70s, I think, and the melody is so soothing and smooth you have no way of forgetting even though you’ve forgotten about who sung and wrote it.  Yes, that’s very true most oftentimes especially for old blokes like me forgetting names of people, places and what-nots.  But unforgettable melodies stick to the mind like crazy not even death could never ever undo it.  This includes all beautiful songs, lyrics and melody; films, stories, novels; faces - especially pretty and agonizingly fugly; work of arts, classic histories, even unworthy jokes and nonsense’s they all clung and stuck in the mind for ages enabling you sometimes to be inspired and write some classic, if not crappy, blog about them, of course.  This time I know you’re alerted again or arouse a little because of the above caption heading this blog!  You might be thinking this time I’m about to divulge some credible, judicious and juicy facts about the STARS!  You’re right!  But the revelation is concentrated on HOW to make a wish and WHICH star you are going to direct or address that wish only!  When I was young I thought making a wish, any kind of wish for that matter is enough especially upon hearing this song (When You Wish upon a Star) for the first time.  So I asked my mother, “Can we really make a wish on a star?”  She said, “Yes, why not!”  “But be sure you’re serious about it and you’re willing to go or undergo whatever it takes when the wish was granted”, this she adamantly added.  “So could we make self-aggrandizing wishes, too?”  Getting very interested, I asked again my mother.  With eyes wide opened my mother said, “Hey, what do you mean by that?”  And she continued, “No, no, no sir!  Self-serving wishes that would not benefit anyone except you, the wisher, are no, no things to the stars!  These are wishes directed to your own self like: you want to get rich, you want to become somebody you’re not ought to be, and many other wishes that only robust you up but you have no palpable reason of becoming one.”  But for wishes that befall human naturally, only they seemed ungranted for some time, these, and you could make a wish to hasten it up or help you attain it.” 

We’re at the balcony or maybe just an open porch of our small house one summer night when we’re engaged on this talk.  And gazing at the firmament so clear with so many bright stars shining, I asked her again, “But which stars could we direct those wishes?”  Here, my mother tried scanning the sky for some moments and pointing, she said, “You see that Big Dipper there, and the Small Dipper there, and Pegasus there, those are cluster of stars serving as guides to sea travelers, and seafarers; they are not wishing stars.  When making a wish to a star, look for the farthest single evening star your naked eyes could see and make a wish on it.  But remember don’t make a wish too many, only one a time and wait for that star to work on it.”

After saying these, she eyed me so intently as if wondering why so suddenly I touched on this subject.  So, she laid her hand gently on my shoulder and almost to a whisper she said, “Young man, do you have any problems?”  I didn’t reply purposely and hinted to go bed but she said, “Wait, make a wish now whatever it is and keep watching that star you will make a wish upon.  When it faded or gone in the sky, your wish will be granted.”

Thanks, mom, I said and go to bed, the next night while alone at the porch I secretly made that wish upon a star.   So every night when the sky is clear and all the stars are shining brightly I keep watching that star I made a wish upon.  I was a freshman in college when I made that wish, a wish so gnawing almost making want to die, if I couldn’t have attained it.  But I trusted my mother’s words “wait for that star to work on it”.  So I waited patiently.  Some nights when there are heavy clouds I couldn’t see the star although I know where it was situated somewhere between the proximity of Pegasus and the Small Dipper.  Summer was over on this first year I made that wish.  And as the wet season approaches the sky gets blurred and no more stars could be seen around.  For three more consecutive years I’ve been like a fool starry-eyed keeping a watchful eye over the sky during summer. And the star was ever still there, sometimes getting bigger, sometimes smaller, but its light is constant not growing dim or brighter just the way it was when I first made a wish upon.  So life passed thru and things got into places.  I continued studying like I should and decided to find some jobs I could fit myself as I feel am now fit to work, this was when I was on my senior year in college.  I was able to land a job and happy about it and was more confident my wish would be granted.  My mother decided to leave the urban life and went with my other siblings in the province in Bicol.  We have a small property there where she stayed until she was taken back by the Lord to His fold.  I was now left alone in the city struggling like crazy to maintain a simple life with no one to confide my troubles.  I have some few friends and this helped to make the living sometimes easy, at times hard but all in all a normal and usual way of life.  But every night I’m still constantly eyeing the sky watchful of that star ever constantly there when the sky is clear.  Until that day when I graduated from college one night I looked upon the sky and found the star mysteriously faded from the sky.  And not very much later I met a woman, for me a very special woman who must be granted by star I made a wish to be my wife.

Goodwater724

18-01-12  

18-01-12